If 17-year-old Damian is honest with himself, his relationship with Emma only makes him half-happy. Especially since his girlfriend has been putting pressure on him because she finally wants to sleep with him. The problem is that he doesn't feel physically attracted to her at all. It's a completely different story when he thinks about boys. But is he really gay? And how is he supposed to find out without cheating on Emma? He needs a sex toy - preferably packaged anonymously so that his mum doesn't find out. But when he responds to a classified ad that Emil, who is the same age as him, actually only posted as a joke, a chat soon develops between the two that will change everything ... SPIEGEL bestselling author Marik Roeder, aka darkviktory, and Kostas Kind, content creator and activist, tell an authentic, sensitive and humorous story about the search for one's own sexuality and the hurdles of coming out.
